...Don't Wanna Lose You Now...
Complete flashback: Jenny & Brian's Breakup
[JANUARY 2002]
Brian glumly followed the group that trooped through the airport. What reason did he have to smile? His girlfriend was flying off to New York and leaving him behind...Brian looked up to see Jenny's smiling face as she hugged everyone. They had reached her gate. Ever since she had decided to leave, their relationship had been on the rocks. She kept cutting dates with him because she had interviews...or had fallen asleep at the library studying...or she was just too busy with work to even talk. All because she had decided to graduate early to go to New York.
"Stupid internship..." Brian cursed under his breath. So she had been accepted for an internship...Did she have to pack up and leave? He had just decided to settle down somewhere nearby so they could be together more often...and this? What was this?
"Hey, mister," Jenny spoke softly. It was his turn for good-byes.
"Don't go..." Brian pleaded.
"Please don't start that again..." She placed her hand on his cheek. "Brian...We've talked this inside out...We're at the airport now...I'm leaving."
"Don't..." Brian took her hand and enveloped her into a hug...one of the ones that made her melt into a big puddle. He knew it, too.
"Brian..." Jenny struggled out of his arms...no matter how much she didn't want to. "Don't do this to me...to yourself..." she looked up at him. "To us."
"What us?" Brian growled. "If I do recall correctly, I am the only one who appears for the 'dates'..." He narrowed his eyes. Jenny sighed.
"Gate 14, now boarding." the loudspeaker announced.
"I give up, Brian. I can't do this anymore...You hear me? I can't. I can't sit here and feel guilty all the time for trying to reach my dreams, Brian. You've already reached yours...It's my turn...Be happy for me." Jenny pleaded.
Shit...This is it...She's really leaving... "Jenny, our relationship is not going to get better if you leave. Don't go..."
"So what are you trying to say?" Jenny retorted, "You'll break up with me if I leave?"
"I ...I don't know." Brian was caught off guard. He didn't mean that, did he? He glanced up at the others. They were nervously fidgeting around with other things, pretending not to be listening.
"Well, figure it out real soon, Brian. The plane is boarding NOW." Jenny impatiently tapped her foot.
"Jenny--"
"Gate 14, now boarding...Last call." the loudspeaker announced again.
"Brian, I have to go...I'll call you when I get there, okay?" Jenny kissed him on the cheek. He flinched. She was going to just leave that easily?
"Jenny..." he grabbed her wrist. "Don't give up so easily."
"It's now or never..." she urged as she spun around. "Now or never...What is it going to be?"
"I...I don't know!" Brian threw his hands up in the air.
"Well I don't either..."
Jenny looked him in the eyes. The gaze held for only a moment.
It was over.
Jenny closed her eyes and turned to walk away. Brian watched silently as she handed her ticket to the flight attendant.
"Jenny, wait!" he called out. This can't be it...This can't be it...Jenny turned around for a second. This is it...
She drew in a sharp breath and fought back her tears. Her fingers lightly traced his figure as the plane pulled away from the terminal. She could still see them all, standing behind the glass, waiting to see her off. All their figures grew smaller and smaller as the plane backed away. She could still see it in his eyes.
Why? She yelled at herself, trying to prevent the tears from falling...why did you let this happen?
Soon, she couldn't see any of them anymore. The only view she was left with was just clouds and the bright blue sky. It didn't fit her mood. She yanked down the shade and leaned her head against it, breathing deeply. Slowly her eyes began to close and she fell asleep... dreaming of everything she used to have with Brian.
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